Monday, March 17, 2014

Adventuring: Our Narnia, Our Story

For months I have been trying to write this post. I have saved drafts that sit there...not knowing exactly how to say what I wanted. How to express myself, which ya know, I'm a writer- it should be easy but it never was, I could never write out what I wanted to express. I saw something the other day that spurred this post though, and made me finally write it.

You know how on Pinterest and you keep seeing those cheesy cute little pictures and craft ideas that say basically....First comes loves, then comes marriage, and then comes baby carriage....ect, ect. How that in three easy steps you have found happiness. A nice little package of happy that seems to gloss over all the life that takes place between those steps. I think a downfall of social media is that often times that life between those steps are glossed over. We post the happy things and there is nothing wrong with that. So, don't think that I don't understand that life happens to everyone, we all have our struggles.

But with that said, I'm a pretty honest person and I've never been one to shy away from the life that happens in between the steps.  Today, I'm sharing with you a part of our story, insecurities and struggles and all. D and I, our story goes more like this.

First comes dating where we were super young and pretty different but we were still able to find love...

Then four years later (still super young) comes a super sweet honeymoon!!! (And marriage...that too. Two people saying the perfect words that binded us together, our hearts and soul)

And then comes..........

See. This is where I struggle. It seems (and I'm sorry but I'm totally blaming this part on where I live. Holy babies everywhere. Holy young people my age having babies and lots of them) that the next step that is you settle down and have kids. That's the story. Right?

I've struggled with this in so many ways. Because this seems to be the appropriate plan. The approved plan. 

But it was never my plan, at least at not at this point in our lives. No, this wasn't D and I's story. For us the next step is adventuring, living life just the two of us, new experiences with my other half...that's the next step for our story (This summer in Stanley, Idaho and then after that...who knows! But we are excited!)

Everyone's story is different. And those who have kids, they're story is wonderful too and works for them. For me, it wasn't just that I didn't want kids right now but instead it was how our lives changed this last October.

After a doctors visit and blood work I was told that I probably can't have kids. That I have about a 2 or 3 % chance of ever conceiving naturally. For a girl who was nervous about kids already, who never really had motherly urges, and living in an area where people married young and procreated like it was going out of style, it was a lot to take in. My self-esteem totally bombed. Everything I thought I knew drastically changed. I was overwhelmed and sad. I was so sad that this was taken away from me, even if I wasn't so sure on this whole kid thing. And I was also grieving the loss of probably never being able to hold a baby that had DJ's beautiful green eyes and my blonde hair, or my nose or DJ's ears. I had to let that idea go. 

I saw a counselor because I didn't know how in the world to deal with all this. My thoughts were all over and racing in a million directions. I wasn't depressed, though some might think I am (or was). Mostly it's because when I'm around certain people I have no idea what to say, how to connect, so I don't say a lot. I had days where I was sad, of course, but I still got out of bed every day. I got straight As and self published a book. I laughed with friends and smiled. I was just a little lost and totally out of my element, though, and so I knew I needed to find a way to fit this new way of thinking in my life. 

With the help of counseling, I'm gaining my self confidence back. If you know me, you know I don't really bullshit around. I know my flaws and strengths and I've never really hated on myself too much. I'm getting that back.

What I am also finally starting to see is that my story doesn't have to be your story. It can be different, even if people don't get it. That's okay. My story might have kids in it one day, but it will be a totally different route than many go, but I'm no stranger to going off the beaten path. Usually, that's the way I prefer it. 

D and I, our story has had a lot of life in in it, a lot of tears of joy and sadness and I know that it's only the beginning. So instead of feeling bad that I don't fit in, that I have lost connections, I am going to instead take advantage of the wonderful things D and I get to do, the places we get to go and the adventures we get to have.

We are always in our constant search of Narnia, of our perfect place and in many ways we have simply found that in each other. So no, our story is not love, marriage and baby. Maybe one day that will be a step in our story, but for right now...our story is us. The places we go, the things we see, the people we met and watching our relationship grow. 

I'm excited ( and a little scared, but who isn't?) about wherever life takes us and I'm proud of myself that I'm at that point. 

Wednesday, March 12, 2014

Cover Reveal: A Matter of Forever by Heather Lyons

You all should know this series is the BEST and I'm a wee bit obsessed with it. So YAY for the cover reveal for  Heather Lyons' A MATTER OF FOREVER!! A MATTER OF FOREVER is the fourth book, and conclusion, of her Fate Series. This is an upper YA/NA Fantasy series, and one not to be missed!!
A Matter of Forever Cover
  It all comes down to this . . .
 Chloe Lilywhite has struggled for years to find her footing in a series of dangerous and demanding worlds. Creator, first tier Council member, and one of the most powerful Magicals in existence, she was little more than one of Fate’s pawns. But now, Chloe is back home and ready to call the shots. She knows what she wants and who she wants to be. Except the Elders never got the memo. Annar and Magical-kind are under attack. The lives of Chloe’s loved ones, and life as they know it, are at stake. Chloe's the key to taking the Elders down, but they won't go quietly into the night. This time, neither will Chloe.

  Other books in the Fate Series: A Amtter of Fate

A Matter of Fate, Book 1 Chloe Lilywhite struggles with all the normal problems of a typical seventeen-year-old high school student. Only, Chloe isn’t a normal teenage girl. She’s a Magical, part of a secret race of beings who influence the universe. More importantly, she’s a Creator, which means Fate mapped out her destiny long ago, from her college choice, to where she will live, to even her job. While her friends and relatives relish their future roles, Chloe resents the lack of say in her life, especially when she learns she’s to be guarded against a vengeful group of beings bent on wiping out her kind. Their number one target? Chloe, of course. That’s nothing compared to the boy trouble she’s gotten herself into. Because a guy she’s literally dreamed of and loved her entire life, one she never knew truly existed, shows up in her math class, and with him comes a twin brother she finds herself inexplicably drawn to. Chloe’s once unyielding path now has a lot more choices than she ever thought possible.   Amazon Barnes & Noble
   A Matter of Heart
A Matter of Heart, Book 2 No longer in high school, Chloe Lilywhite is now living and working in Annar, the Magicals’ city-state plane of existence. Since moving, she’s joined the Council, gone on missions with the Guard, moved into her own apartment, and enrolled at the University of Annar. Plus, she’s happily engaged to be married to Jonah Whitecomb, the literal man from her dreams, not to mention her Connection. While she still struggles with aspects of her craft, Chloe feels like she’s finally coming into her own, especially after a difficult year that had her questioning nearly everything in her life. After a brutal attack by the Elders, her life is turned upside down once more. Accusations fly throughout the Council and Guard, forcing Chloe to confront her worst fears about what’s she’s capable of as a Creator. And then there’s the matter of Kellan Whitecomb, Jonah’s twin brother and Chloe’s ex, who resurfaces after disappearing months before. Although Chloe chose Jonah, and despite their best efforts, the two find it hard to stay away from one another. But no matter what Fate throws at her, Chloe is determined to take charge of her life, even as it begins to spiral out of control.   Amazon Barnes & Noble
  A MAtter of Truth
A Matter of Truth, Book 3 Not long ago, Chloe Lilywhite seemingly had it all: a prized spot on the Magicals’ Council as lead Creator, a loving fiancé and Connection, and a wealth of good friends. But the poised young woman she projected was nothing more than a façade. Her parents all but disowned her. Power plays and accusations of murder within the Council rocked her confidence. And most difficult of all, her secret, a secondary Connection to Jonah’s twin brother, Kellan, became painfully impossible to resist. Desperate to gain control over her rapidly unraveling existence, Chloe did the unthinkable: she ran away. Now living and working in Alaska under an alias, Chloe is slowly discovering who she is and, more importantly, who she wants to be. But the more she tries to leave the Magical world behind, the harder it becomes to stay hidden. The Elders are back with a vengeance, and the stakes have never been higher. Chloe finally has to make a choice: embrace her pre-ordained Fate or pave her own way in the worlds. One thing’s for sure, though—she’s finally up for the challenge. *This is a New Adult title, suitable for readers 18+. Amazon Barnes & NobleAMoF Series Banner3   Author Photo
About Heather Lyons: 
 Heather Lyons has always had a thing for words—She’s been writing stories since she was a kid. In addition to writing, she’s also been an archaeologist and a teacher. Heather is a rabid music fan, as evidenced by her (mostly) music-centric blog, and she’s married to an even larger music snob. They’re happily raising three kids who are mini music fiends who love to read and be read to.  


Monday, March 10, 2014

Cover Reveal: Silence by Natalee Grimaldi


Silence by Natalee Grimaldi Release Date: April 2014 Contemporary Romance(w/ a twist) Stand-Alone Novel, 18+

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Synposis PNGS

Haunted by unwanted memories, Isobel "Izzy" Walker has tried to move on and recover from a painful past.

When a chance encounter puts her on the same path as the reclusive musician Cain Ryan, neither will be able to deny the passionate sparks that ignite when they’re together.

But Izzy isn't the only one trying to salvage her life.

Cain is also struggling to fight free from the chains that hold his voice captive.

As both decide to give love a chance, they’ll work hard to truly move forward.

But the truth always comes out.

And the truth will be far more powerful than the love they've found.

Will silence consume their love, or can two stained souls face the truth?

Author Bio PNGS
 Born and raised in Los Angeles, Natalee’s first love was books and the close runner-up was music. An avid reader and book blogger/reviewer for Read This~Hear That, she can never resist a passionate love story with wicked twists that leave you on the verge of a panic attack. With her obsession for the written word, the soon to be 25-year-old chose a career in Journalism. Fresh out of college, she currently works as a freelance journalist as well as doing other odd jobs. When she’s not reading or writing (which seems to be all the time), Natalee loves snacking on Gummy Bears and watching Game of Thrones.
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My Book Baby

Finding June came out last Tuesday! Hooray! That of course doesn't mean my work is done. I feel strongly that what I put out there is a good book. It's a good story. June and Reece's story is a good one. Now the hard part comes in having people take a chance on it. I did not write a smut filled book with (insert a certain type of bad boy) character. Not that I don't enjoy those. I just wrote a story with a good guy and a girl whose heart is after my own. So I'm going to hit the (internet) pavement as I try to shove my book in as many bloggers hands as possible to get the word out. I feel like Finding June is my kid I'm putting into a child beauty pageant and I'm the new mom that doesn't know how much makeup to put on their kid.

And I have to say THANK YOU for friends, family, fellow authors and bloggers who gave shout outs to Finding June. Your support means SO much to me. Not all authors get that type of support. I feel incredibly lucky and loved and blessed. In all reality, I was totally nervous about it all. I mean, no I did not write a smut filled book...but.....there is swearing (June swears like a sailor. I have no idea where she got that from. ;) ) and there is some sex..I mean June and Reece are both consenting adults. All tastefully done. But in the realm of books I read and published in, Finding June is pretty tame.

Anyways. If you haven't picked up a copy of Finding June check out the links below. ALSO there is two giveaways going on where you can win signed paperbacks and amazon gift cards. One is done by my blog tour and the other is by My Book Muse. There is also links in the side bar ---->
And I updated my playlist and music behind Finding June. The original post can be found over at Heather Lyons Blog (Who is absolutely fabulous and you should all check out her books)

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Finding Junes- Goodreads (You don't have to have a goodreads account but most reviews are on this site in case your curious about what people are saying)

And if you do pick it up, if you love it or don't, please leave a review! Authors love reviews! Specially new authors still trying to figure out all this shit :) Thanks lovelys!

*If your a book blogger and wanting a review copy of Finding June I am more than happy to send one along. Just contact me on any of my social media :) *

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